Archive for February, 2009

(why is there a peak in my page stats on 14 feb.)

anyway, the midterm break has hardly been a break. as usual, more effort towards catching up on work (in this sem fyp), with friends and realigning direction in life. i’m still coming to terms with what my 2nd priority in life should be now. complete the race called Study with good grades, or focus on getting a job instead? further studies, here or overseas? research assistant? teaching?

I don’t worry about tomorrow
I just live from day to day
I don’t borrow from its sunshine
For its skies may turn to grey
I don’t worry o’er my future
For I know what Jesus said
And today I’ll walk beside Him
For He knows what lies ahead

I don’t know about tomorrow
It may bring me poverty
But the one who feeds the sparrow
Is the one who stands by me
And the path that be my portion
May be through the flame or flood
But His presence goes before me
And I’m covered with His blood

Many things about tomorrow
I don’t seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand ^^

may this be true for me.


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vday 09/ fri the 13th

i had an interesting dinner night out. to cut a long story short, it came to the point where some of my friends had the opportunity to tell me some encouraging words of what they have seen in me.

want to know why I believe what I believe
committed (to qt esp)

those were the ones i remember anyway. the question is really stuck to me now, am I really what others see in me? Some of the above comments are what I hope to be. A faithful follower of God, to be convicted of my beliefs, and to be committed in what I set out to do. How far do I fall short of the mark?

It really reminded me that what others see in me may not be what is really happening. Someone commented recently, “while you are at a stage of your life which is relatively smooth going”. We can hide our deepest and darkest secrets from those who we talk and interact with.

But we can’t hide the truth from God. He sees and knows everything. I have to learn to come before Him, and lay my life bare before Him. To acknowledge my weaknesses. To commit my desire to correct them. And be willing to see the commitment through.

I’m not putting up a front, but I need to give up all my possessions and desires in order to reach my goals.

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